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19.1.10

Burning Up

Have you smelt this??

Smells like heaven

I want this

& I think a special someone

is gona get it for me for

VDay

So he can lick it

off later lolz

;-)

8.1.10

Happy Birthday to my main hoe on the stroll,, My Kay.Jay.Nay!! I love this girl cuz she is so extreme and crazy but that makes her one of the best people I know. I love I can activate my inner skeez around her and i have the most fun w/ her lmao. She is smart, funny, loyal, spontaneous, beautiful, and a true friend. she finally turned 21 today but you would think she is 25 or older the way she lives her life,, cuz she has been through so much but stays on her grown woman. Plus she is a sex expert!! I hate when she calls me out when I say dumb shit but never brings me down. I wish her all the success,, good luck honey going through your senior,, we gotta stay smart beautiful bitches. Love ya hunnie!!

Happy Twenty.Ten!!

Here are some photos from that crazy night!! When I tell you we was loaded,, I mean we were all LOAAAAADDDEEEDDDD!!! This is definitely a night to go in the history books and Im glad I got to ring in the New Year with the girls I love the most!! Hope all of you had as much fun as I did!!

*Sigh great times,, till next year folks!!
Oh and excuse my hair it was blazin in that ho!! lmao

New Year Realization

I know everyone makes a New Years Resolution and I never did because I knew I would break it. One part because of motivation and the other part I really didn't know how to plan for it. But now I have a desire to set my goals not just for the New Year,, but the rest of my life.

My New Life Resolution,, as I rather call it is to reshape my body to be healthier and sexier [cuz i already think Im sexy ;-) ] and to get a grip on making me all around happy,, basically my goal is to be all about me!! For basically all my life I realized I never really put me first in the ways I should have,, I always find myself caring about what others think and that isnt right. I need to just be focused on whats best for me by me. From family,, to friends,, to ppl i dont even know I worry about my reputation and letting them down. But who cares,, at the end of the day whatever I do ultimately effects me and no one else so my plans for my life is what matters most down to what I do and the way I feel about me.

So,, Im going to ultimately make me a better person all around for ME,, and if anyone that enjoys that can but if not oh well. Im going to apply this in everything I do
Asking myself:

1. What do I really want to do?
2. Will this make me feel better or worse?
3. How will this affect me in the long run?

Ive made alot of dumb decisions in my life that werent near what I wanted to do,, and in the end it only hurt me,, so now starting in 2010 Im going to embrace the love I have for myself to only be out for me. This doesnt mean I dont care about anyone,, ultimately if I feel you are worthy to be in my world,, I will care and love you but at the end of the day,, I will only focus on the betterment of myself. Im not 100% happy in my situation of life right now,, I dont have a job,, i gained a grip of weight in the past year,, im confused as of what I really want to do in my life,, im had to move back in my grandmother's house,, & i am not fulfilled in my relationship the way I want to be,,even tho it isnt bad it wasnt wat I saw for myself in reference to falling in love. In all,, I know I have the power to change all this and Im starting today!! Wish me the best,, and I wish you all the same!!

4.1.10

Happy New Age Day!!

Happy Birthday to my best friend of 10 years,, Jackalantern!! Ive known her since 8th grade & she has been my ride or die since 9th!! We lasted through our bootleg as high school,, we shared many memories & inside jokes i.e. `That skwirl was hittin it; Who' daddy is that?; Never expect him to be listenin to shorty on the floor; You gettin bold on the brinks` lmfao!! Me & her almost even died together [4.4.04] lmao! Man I Love this hoe she is, what I call her My Right Hand, & i hope we be friends forever!... Wait this is my sister for life & I wish I was partying up w/ u in ATL...Cant wait for the Miami & Puerton Rico trip!

1.1.10

Feliz Nueve Años!!

Bye Bye 2009 Hello 2010!! Man this year has been a conglomerate of highs and lows but for the most part im glad im alive to see another year. I have survived two decades and that means alot I cant wait to see many more. Hopefully God will have great things in store for me w/ success,,love,, & life! 2005-2009 was very trying times for me because it tested my life as a woman and growing pains have left hurtful scars.
Looking back ive done alot of things I regret and wish I never had to go through,, but I guess it made me stronger. Every New Years im like how did i make it this far because in certain cases I should have been dead or even wanted to die. But what I realized is no matter how hard life is its never hard enough because it could be worse. What you're going through may never amount to someone elses heartache so you have to be grateful even when it feels your life is ending.
In life,, I realized my biggest downfall was men and alot of times even myself. Ive been through so much which the opposite sex its depressing and exhausting i almost feel like giving up on ever finding love and being happy w/ someone. I know it sounds obsurd to think that way because Im so young,, but if only you knew what I been through. Its so much to handle and im finding myself questioning once again another relationship. IDK what to do...
My hopes for 2010 is to be happy, focus on bettering myself, getting closer to my dreams and falling in love. I pray that I get to be everything I dream and want to be and have for myself. I no longer want to get my feelings hurt by someone going into this new year I want to start a new life when it comes to relationships. I also need a job which is highly important. But for the most part I no longer want to live w/ regrets and what ifs the way I have. Wish me success in that!
& I wish you all many blessings and i hope you guys fulfill everything you want to. Thank you for reading and please continue...Love you guys and all your feedback it really helps me.

Oh and New Years Eve photos to come,, the piks on the right side of the page were from last year new years eve,, and trust these new ones are even more ratchett!! Lmao

25.12.09

Merry Christmas

Jesus is the Reason For The Season!!

Merry Christmas to All & to All a Goodnight!!

21.12.09

Happy Sephora Holidays

First Off,, want to apologize for being M.I.A still have to sporadically find a cpu to work on,, would anyone would like to buy me a new MacBook for Christmas??

Well,, Christmas is approximately 4 days away and Im not feeling festive at all because I am moneyless and can't buy me or any friends and family gifts like I would have in previous years. However if you are feeling the giving spirit for yourself or others here are some great gifts for you last minute shoppers from my favorite store Sephora...A New Years gift is still as special as a Christmas Gift!!

ghd Rare ($245)

A set featuring a ghd IV styler, a thermal protector (for normal-to-fine hair), and a miracle mist—all stored in a limited-edition carry case and leopard print styler pouch.

Best of Bliss ($45)

Five piece set of Bliss' most popular skin care items

Bare Minerals Extreme Glitters ($32)

A kit of three mega shimmer eye shadows including prime time eyelid primer and extreme glitter brush.

Stella by Stella McCartney Gift Set ($70)

One of my favorite scents that has a mixture of roses and amber that completes with a soft and fresh fragrance that embodies femininity

Sephora Glamorous 360 Deluxe Palette ($36)

This set worth $130 has a complete cllection for lips,eyes and face.

Too Faced Glamorour Revolution ($39.50)

With extreme colors and flawless application Too Faced gives fun, glamorous colors for the beauty queen in you!

Kat Von D Lightning Sheer Lip Gloss Set ($25)

Four premier limited-edition shades of sheer, sparkling lip glosses from tatoo artist Kat Von D.

Dylan's Candy Bar Re-Treat- Ice Cream Dream Gift Set- Chocolate Cupcake ($35)

From Ralph Lauren's daughter Dylan, this skin softening body butter is inspired by her candy shop in Manhattan.

Clanique Great Skin Every Day Collection ($25)

Clanique's most popular skin care items, my favorite is the moisture surge extended thirst relief your face gets this extreme refreshing feeling.