19.1.10
Cabana || Hollywood
Beyonce || Allure
The Balmain
Burning Up
8.1.10
Happy New Age Day!!
Happy Twenty.Ten!!
*Sigh great times,, till next year folks!!
Oh and excuse my hair it was blazin in that ho!! lmao
New Year Realization
I know everyone makes a New Years Resolution and I never did because I knew I would break it. One part because of motivation and the other part I really didn't know how to plan for it. But now I have a desire to set my goals not just for the New Year,, but the rest of my life.
My New Life Resolution,, as I rather call it is to reshape my body to be healthier and sexier [cuz i already think Im sexy ;-) ] and to get a grip on making me all around happy,, basically my goal is to be all about me!! For basically all my life I realized I never really put me first in the ways I should have,, I always find myself caring about what others think and that isnt right. I need to just be focused on whats best for me by me. From family,, to friends,, to ppl i dont even know I worry about my reputation and letting them down. But who cares,, at the end of the day whatever I do ultimately effects me and no one else so my plans for my life is what matters most down to what I do and the way I feel about me.
So,, Im going to ultimately make me a better person all around for ME,, and if anyone that enjoys that can but if not oh well. Im going to apply this in everything I do
Asking myself:
1. What do I really want to do?
2. Will this make me feel better or worse?
3. How will this affect me in the long run?
Ive made alot of dumb decisions in my life that werent near what I wanted to do,, and in the end it only hurt me,, so now starting in 2010 Im going to embrace the love I have for myself to only be out for me. This doesnt mean I dont care about anyone,, ultimately if I feel you are worthy to be in my world,, I will care and love you but at the end of the day,, I will only focus on the betterment of myself. Im not 100% happy in my situation of life right now,, I dont have a job,, i gained a grip of weight in the past year,, im confused as of what I really want to do in my life,, im had to move back in my grandmother's house,, & i am not fulfilled in my relationship the way I want to be,,even tho it isnt bad it wasnt wat I saw for myself in reference to falling in love. In all,, I know I have the power to change all this and Im starting today!! Wish me the best,, and I wish you all the same!!
4.1.10
Happy New Age Day!!
Happy Birthday to my best friend of 10 years,, Jackalantern!! Ive known her since 8th grade & she has been my ride or die since 9th!! We lasted through our bootleg as high school,, we shared many memories & inside jokes i.e. `That skwirl was hittin it; Who' daddy is that?; Never expect him to be listenin to shorty on the floor; You gettin bold on the brinks` lmfao!! Me & her almost even died together [4.4.04] lmao! Man I Love this hoe she is, what I call her My Right Hand, & i hope we be friends forever!... Wait this is my sister for life & I wish I was partying up w/ u in ATL...Cant wait for the Miami & Puerton Rico trip!
1.1.10
Feliz Nueve Años!!
Looking back ive done alot of things I regret and wish I never had to go through,, but I guess it made me stronger. Every New Years im like how did i make it this far because in certain cases I should have been dead or even wanted to die. But what I realized is no matter how hard life is its never hard enough because it could be worse. What you're going through may never amount to someone elses heartache so you have to be grateful even when it feels your life is ending.
In life,, I realized my biggest downfall was men and alot of times even myself. Ive been through so much which the opposite sex its depressing and exhausting i almost feel like giving up on ever finding love and being happy w/ someone. I know it sounds obsurd to think that way because Im so young,, but if only you knew what I been through. Its so much to handle and im finding myself questioning once again another relationship. IDK what to do...
My hopes for 2010 is to be happy, focus on bettering myself, getting closer to my dreams and falling in love. I pray that I get to be everything I dream and want to be and have for myself. I no longer want to get my feelings hurt by someone going into this new year I want to start a new life when it comes to relationships. I also need a job which is highly important. But for the most part I no longer want to live w/ regrets and what ifs the way I have. Wish me success in that!
& I wish you all many blessings and i hope you guys fulfill everything you want to. Thank you for reading and please continue...Love you guys and all your feedback it really helps me.
Oh and New Years Eve photos to come,, the piks on the right side of the page were from last year new years eve,, and trust these new ones are even more ratchett!! Lmao