My Blog Brand New!!

I updated my blog as you can see and Im really excited about it. It looks so much better to me more sleek i guess. I'm still trying to fix it up but I had to change it. Major shout out  to Elle at edk.dolce [http://edkdolce.blogspot.com/] she hooked up my banner for me and I thank her so much for volunteering her services. Isn't it cute?? Of course it is,, it has me on it!! 

P.S. I'm going to be blogging more soon once I get my mind into writing again I have learned so much this past summer,, as I wrote in my last blog,, it seems every summer I go through a life changing moment.  

Love you guys,, keep reading!!

Life Is A Happy Game??

Hello all!! Sorry I haven't been blogging as much as I would to so much has been going on in my life. I feel so overwhelmed and somewhat defeated. Have you ever had some many changes in your life that you just couldn't keep up with it?? Or life seems to be going fine until a travesty of an event happens. Every year I have a super life changing event happen to me and I'm getting real tired of this. Some years I have two or even three,, but majority of the time I experience at least one. I just want to live and be happy,, I'm getting real tired of learning life lessons the hard way even when I'm not trying to.

I desperately need a break a vacation of sorts. I want to get away from all of my past and my current situation. I understand life is full of tests and trials but what scares me is already knowing all that i been through and realizing that at 22,, this is only the beginning. I have so much more lessons to learn and harsh experiences to go through I don't know how long I'm going to last mentally before breaking down. 

What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger,, this is true and I know that through all of my crazy experiences I have learned from them and they made me a stronger,, wiser person but they also have left impressionable scars on my soul. I get constant flashbacks of these experiences and even though I have to move on from them,, they still make me feel horrible I had to go through that just to learn from it. I'm definitely the person that you say don't touch that its hot and eventually I touch it anyway just to see or sometimes I'm the person who knows its hot and stay away from it for majority of the time,, but while I'm trying to avoid it so diligently,, I manage to trip and fall or someone pushes me on it and get burned anyway. My life in my eyes can be a constant train wreck its never smooth sailing and I'm struggling so hard to not slip into depression. 

My biggest struggle right now is getting over the experiences and moving on. i have been feeling really down on myself lately saying all the shoulda, coulda,woulda's, that I'm losing my mind. Can some of you tell me how do you guys get over things that have happened to you in your life that pushed you to the limit? How do you all just say "Fuck it" to things that make life unbearable at times? I need your advice and prayers,, because like many,, I'm going through it and I'm feeling miserable. Share some of your pick me ups that help you get over and get by.

SMH Moment: Big Booty "Model" Edition

This is clearly an episode of "When Plastic Surgery Goes Wrong!!" Is it that much pressure to be a thick big booty vixen these days where you turn your ass into a giant beehive attack?? I'm sorry but this isn't even a touch of attractive,, if I was a man this infected looking ass wouldn't get my dick close to hard. What is even more sadder about this is that there are men that are like damn "she bad as fuck,, my dick might break inside of all that but I would still fuck." This ass looks like if you slap it too hard it would fall off. The poor chile can't even walk correctly. With those non thick thighs,, You can tell she was a skinny minnie who thought Dr.90210 could help her look like a Barbie but instead made her look like a science experiment. PSA Ladies: Please love your bodies, don't let the pressure of society have u looking crazy just for the attention and affection of some man. If you do choose to get plastic surgery its your body do you,, but please make it look like you were born with the body part,, say it with me... corrective surgery!! Don't go overboard on the the shit to where you look like two umpa lumpas made a slip in slide down your back and got caught in your anus!! Not a good look!! Fathers hug your daughters!!

Falcon Lounge || Hollywood

Me & the best friend at The Falcon Lounge in Hollywood to celebrate on e of my closest friends graduation from my Alma Marta SDSU. It was my first time there and I like it really laid back and sexy nice place to chill or go on the weekends to party, plus it was some cuties up in there that looked like they had real jobs!! Heyyyy now!! These were taken a while ago forgot to post them but don't we look too hott to trot?? Yes? Oh Why Thank you thank you thank you, your far too kind!!

We Gettin Money Over Here!!

Guess what ya'll,, I got a jizob a jizob a jizob a jizob!! Yessssssssssssssss bitches!! I'm gettin young money over here lmao I'm sooo happy and grateful and excited all in one you have no clue how much broke I was. And the coolest thing about it,, it is resume worthy a for its my first media job since I graduated last year, since then I just been interning. But thank God that my interning paved the way for me to get this job I have now because I was actually referred for this position and my boss is the someone who actually requested me to work for her because of the wonderful work ethic I showed at my internship. For legal purposes I'm not going to say the company,, just incase they want to Google me lolz,,  but just know that I work in the Marketing and Media department as a Media Marking Associate!! So,, in relation to having a job I will prolly be slacking on blogging again but I'm going to try not to. I have some more bloggin ideas on topics I would like to give my 50 cent to. Hope all is well with you guys!!!

Changes To Come

My blog definitely needs a makeover,, Im tired of looking at it like this I want to polish it up a lil. I have been wanting to do this for a while but I have been too lazy. It takes a lot of patience to do this taking the template I have right now was all made from scratch. I want it to be revamped and more modern. If anyone would like to make me a cute banner leave a comment or email me at qu33nkam@gmail.com. Oh and  I was thinking of changing my domain name, I don't want a blogspot anymore,, however Im unsure if I do that will you all still be able to find me easily?? Give me info on that. If you guys have some sugggestions of topics of anything you would like me to speak on let me know as well or if you have or want advice from me. Greatly appreciate you all for reading and the readers i have had from day one who still read and comment I heart you more than you know. Also, I will do my best to reach out to all of you and if you would like me to check out your blog let me know and if you are new to this blog please follow and comment.Thanks. Tootles

What is Slim Thug Talking About??

So I waited a few days to really make sure I could give a non-bias or should I say a non-black bitch comment about his proclaimed judgment on the black woman and why we are all doomed to hell. He might as well should have said we were Satan's children and we need to be redeemed and forgiven by Jesus. Sheesh!! Is that really how black men feel about us? When did black women not become shit?? One thing I don't like is people that make ridiculous judgments and interpretations of what a whole race is based on a few people. Isn't that called being prejudice?? Do I have to call Slim Thugga a racist lol? His comment if you didn't get to read it, put down not only black women but white women. For him to say Black women need to lower our standards because successful Black men don't exist shows more about black men than black women any day. Why are successful black men going extinct and why is that okay? I think the better implication is that they are the ones that need to get it together. I feel that the definition of success is very blurred in the black community anyway. For Slim Thug to think he is successful by being a dope boy is just pathetic, cuz he damn sure not making money as a rapper. We need to stop thinking that getting money is the only ounce of success and independence, being successful comes from the way you spend that money and how you get it and its not only a lifestyle but a state of mind. Just because someone isn't able to buy out the bar doesn't mean they aren't successful,, y'all need to stop letting entertainment equal y'all success and go get an education and get a more realistic career,,and stop giving excuses to why you can't do shit else, but rap,, sell drugs,, and play sports. Success comes with ambition and working hard in a positive way and if we do not have enough black men in our community that has that then they are the ones that need to pull it together.Instead of black women lowering our standards maybe y'all need to raise yours. The fact that there are more black women in college than black men shows that,, the fact that they populate the majority of the jail systems shows that. I'm not going to go too deep into this situation because I can go on and on,, but I will say that I do not believe all black men believe in what Slim Thug is saying and if y'all do that's just fucking sad and you have no respect for women in general. Black women do hold y'all down for the fact that we still all fuck with y'all like that. I'm proud to say that there is no other race of woman that has held the black man down stronger than the black woman; we are there for y'all through thick thin and all that,, we have helped y'all become the men you are today.  Any real woman of any race demands success and the ability to provide for the family and be a protector from any man she seeks to be with,, if women have to search miles high and low to find a black man that equals that is not a great representation of the black man at all. Also, any white woman or woman other than black that allows a man to refer to them the way Slim Thug does is pathetic as well. Remember these perfect 'submissive' women were once the same women y'all got lynched for even looking at or the first women today to go running saying she was raped. I do think there are some rotten apples that spoils it for the rest,, but those are personal problems to why your woman won't do for you or is irresponsible,, that is not a racial problem. If yall go around flossing shit and showing your worth is only made by what you have.. all you will attract is that gold diggin' girl than trust me that's what you deserve to have. I really don't like when people date for superficial reasons,, it says a lot about you more than the race your putting down or the race you are promoting; if you meet someone and date them it should be because they compliment you in the most positive ways not because of a damn stereotype.

Thanking You Now!!

Okkk,, So I am one of those people out there who took advantage of the leak of Drake's Thank Me Later,, [you probably have it as well] and with that being said I was trying to hold out on hearing until I ripped open the plastic packaging,, however,, because of all the hype and wonderful reviews I couldn't help myself to obtain it. Once I found out that my best friend it downloaded,, I had to hear its greatness. And yes I AM IMPRESSED!!  I loveeeeeeee this album I play it everyday all day. There isn't one song I skip nor dislike. He definitely gave me all I needed and more and I'm glad he stayed with his style and story telling that us true Drizzy fans fell in love with. It is very reminiscent of So Far Gone and that was definitely an upgraded flavor compared to Room For Improvement and Comeback Season,, which I still love as well. Thank Me Later to me is a sequel to So Far Gone. I'm still going to buy Thank Me Later as intended but I'm so Happy I didn't wait till later,, I'm also glad Drake isn't upset about the leak.

Alicia Augello- Cook Keys Beats

It's really been hard for me to want to not like Alicia Keys,, I'm saying she is beautiful and talented and for a cool minute seemed really down to earth,, but because of Swizz Beats she is being too basic bitch for me. I never spoke on this adulterated situation before because when I found out about it the first time, it was almost old news and I didn't have all the details until some time after. I didn't want to believe that America's Sweetheart was a home-wrecking tramp after declaring how strongly she is for women empowerment,, but there is no way shape or form you can sing about being a Superwoman being someones sideline ho for two years while the wife was pregnant with his baby taking that you knew he was married with children and after his wife politely asked you to leave her man alone so they can work on their marriage. After all of Alicia's tea had been spilled onto the counter and the floor,, I assumed she would do the righteous thing by leaving Swizz alone and revamp her life and get back on the horse because I truly am aware people make mistakes people aren't perfect and love and lust make you do crazy things,, however with her now being in the position she is in,, engaged and impregnated to a lying cheating married man she has accepted  the fact that this love affair of a mistake is something she would like to prolong with for the rest of her life. 

Now,, I have NEVER since I heard about this ordeal have or will be accepting or happy for either Alicia Keys or Swizz Beats for the obvious reasons that Im so indeed shocked everyone is so accepting of. I see people on the blogs congratulating their union like its President Obama and Michelle rekindling their vows. UH UH People,, this is not by far cute,, this situation is a fucking train wreck and a poor example of love and relationships. No matter what Alicia wants to say,, she is a role model and needs to understand that when she became a singer and most importantly a philanthropist. You can not tell me about Karma coming back around and you are sitting here playing in traffic with someone else's man. Everyone wants to turn the other cheek to this situation because they feel Alicia is so beautiful and successful and that Swizz made the better choice,, just by this happening the way it did I do not think we really knew about our beloved A. Keys the way we thought. This shit is wrong there is no justification for it,, IM SORRY!! Any woman that deals with a married man is foul as fuck and any man out there thinking Alicia is bomb.com you can see right there how insecure this woman really is. Any woman sleeping or emotionally dealing with a married man *I say married because I hold HIGH expectations for marriage way differently than I do for single people but Ill get into my definition of marriage in another post* has low self esteem because she is desperate and craving a for attention to fill an absent whole in her life. Also,, with her doing this Swizz should be turned off she would even go through with it. Attention men,, if a woman allows you to cheat on your wife with her how can you ever think she will be 100% loyal and respectful to you when she has no morals or standards for herself. And women any man that allows himself to cheat on his wife and leave her for you,, how can you trust the fact he wont do the same to you. 

In closing,, I can give two donkey shits about Swizz Beats,, my expectations and liking for him was never set high. However, I was a fan of Alicia Keys *even though for a while all her songs sounded like No One for the longest and I couldn't get down although I do like Unthinkable,, probably  because it was arranged by Drake but it is a nice song* I looked at Alicia for being so attractive and talented as form of real natural beauty,, almost every man I dated loathed her as their dream girl and if she came knocking down their door in a thong alone I will be,, now Im seeing her current actions granting that as a possibility. Im really disappointed in her and Swizz Beats for carrying on like this. No matter what Swizz and Mashonda were going through there is no hurtful feeling like you man giving his love away to someone else,, I feel for her and hope she is recovering well. Im not even certain their divorce is final. But to each his own,, I hope Alicia and Swizz know that there is no positivity can come once a relationship is built on lies and deceit and they need to go home and watch a Tyler Perry play and bring their shattering life back to formation. 

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